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I took this photo before I left, when clarity reigned and I felt deeply at peace about what needs to be done and get back home to do it. Yet, the reality of being back here has hit me hard.

I didn't want to come back. And it was quite phenomenal when I had made the decision to leave - not even packed up - this was 3 days prior to leaving - our parrot, Alex, who, had not been in his carry crate since we arrived, yet it was always open on his table (as he has a portable perch and is just 'out' all the time) - I made the decision to leave and... I walked inside and he had climbed into his carry crate. So amazing how much animals feel. I hadn't even voiced it to anyone yet at that time! 

It was... pretty special, travelling with our animals - that... if it wasn't for the storms, some animals would've been baby sat/in the kennels, that.. this trip showed me how we can ALL go and that.. was pretty special. 

This trip, showed me so much. Clarity is definitely one of them! 

...

I'VE BEEN IN A HOLDING PATTERN AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW

Maybe, that is what this trip has been about. 

Because it certainly wasn't about the storms! Yet, that is the thing that got me out of there - so it was time, to move outta there - and FAST. 

And it sure did happen. 

And I think from that, I am still adjusting. Well, I feel that it wasn't until two days later I actually energetically arrived after driving 2000kms unexpectedly, well, 1603 to precise. 

It's been an adjustment, in a sense in that I am someone who likes to energetically be prepared for something like this road trip. And whilst I was - intuitively, and could pack up and leave within 3 days with 'no warning whatsoever' - is a pretty big feat if I do say so myself. 

I am sure the sun is shining back where we've lived for 8 years and of course, I have gone through the full range of emotions, including bawling my eyes out as soon as our car pulled up in a place I knew we would be staying for longer...

THINKING YOUR PURPOSE IS ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WILL KILL YOU

And no! It is not about being in service to OTHERS! 

I have heard time and time again - people exhausted, wanting to give it all up, throw in the towel and getting SUPER RESENTFUL thinking and trying to implement something that is not your purpose driven life - will end up an emotional mess, tired, resentful and just... not wanting to be here anymore. 

Now, whilst the difference between what you're meant to do and what you're not meant to do is a bit of a fine line when it comes to pushing through resistance to get your purpose work done - there is a very distinctive feeling between knowing this is what you're Heart and Soul is MEANT to do - no matter how hard or frustrating trying to figure out the tools to make it happen in the world and plain and simple - this is not what I am meant to do. 

How will you know? 

Because you will FEEL IT IN YOUR SOUL! 

Even though...

Boundaries, Empaths & Their Families

The hardest thing to do for a Highly Sensitive Empath is set boundaries - with their families! 

Of course, setting boundaries to start with at all is tricky, feels uncomfortable and not normal! 

However, the hardest thing a highly sensitive empath that is breaking the chain of abuse, emotional turmoil and the generational patterns of everything that hasn't been in true alignment - is setting boundaries with the ones they love! 

Now, you might think, 'Oh, I actually don't love them anymore with how much they have hurt me! I don't speak to them anymore because of this!"

And whilst that may be somewhat true - the reality is that your inner child inside of you is craving and desiring their love, affection, attention and acceptance. 

This is why inner child work is so important when facing the reality of your current and past situation - it is here, that the groundwork can really amplify and take you through it, rather...

I See People Telling People 'you just need to not be in the pain of it' 'you just need to think a positive thought' 'you just need to get over it' 'you just need to forget about it' 'you just need to choose the light and decide to let it go' 'you need to choose to move into a higher vibration' and I cringe, I deeply cringe at the fact that people even tell people these things! 

Maybe it is that they don't want to feel what that person is feeling... 

Maybe it is that they don't know what else to say... 

Maybe it is that they are protecting their own energy... 

Maybe it is that they think that person is 'in too low a vibration and I need to stay clear of them'... 

Maybe it is that they simply do not know how to handle such a person which strong, deep, powerful, 'negative' emotions - that they do not know where to start with such a person that has been to hell and somehow got back again through the deepest, darkest trauma that they can't even begin to imagine...

When the Devil becomes your ally, you wouldn't even question the darkness. 

When the Devil becomes your ally, you see them as your best friend. 

When the Devil becomes your ally, you know you're moving and have shifted to your next level. 

When the Devil becomes your friend, not your foe... reality shifts beyond measure. 

When the Devil becomes your deepest reflection you transform your reality at the most underground of cores that takes root in the depths not many dare to go. 

They see it is a scary. 

They see it as evil. 

They see it as low vibration that should be steered away from with a ten foot barge pole. 

Yet, most do not know, that the most powerful energy, comes from the darkest of depths, if you know how to travel them and return with more power and sense of self that some try, but never reach. 

Creation was born in blood, sweat and tears. (Intimacy with a lover, is all of these in deep creation of a Being)

Creation was born in...

Last night I was dancing with my Dragons 

#sidenote #energyupdate #checkin

• People from your past turning up
• A difference and change in routine and flow 
• Something out of the blue happens that makes you smile 
• Something that you thought was lost, is found 
• A returning to the old, to show you what needs to energetically be cleaned out and shifted in vibration 
• A deepening to your Life Purpose path and feeling like everything is falling into place, even though you still don't know what those details are - you can feel it in the ethers, it just hasn't manifested in form yet, but you feel it oh so close
• Like you are being pulled in 50 directions at once - but what is actually happening is a clear out of what no longer serves but ALSO - asking you to return to ultimate Heart Presence with ALL that you are doing. Remember, I said that chaos is only going to increase and you need to stay grounded BUT also - deeply PRESENT with what you are doing, let the chaos be...

Just take the first step...

Easier said than done at times!

Especially during this wave of whatever is going on collectively right?

Yet, it is the key... to turning up... even if it is to the mess... and taking one step....

At other times it is about reminding yourself of the big picture, of your WHY.... because that isn't always clear... and sometimes we get lost, we forget in all the hustle and bustle of life, especially when we are trying to pull ourselves out of a hard situation or  walking through the mud.

Sometimes need to be reminded of why we are doing things...

Because life can be super busy and full on...

Like - I mean - NOISY...

And sometimes it is so noisy it drowns out the clarity of your Soul's calling and your WHY is lost in all the noise...

There are so many things that can distract you...

That can make you forget...

Why you even started...

Why you even kept going before...

Why you even bother now...

Because, sometimes you forget...

But...

Then you remember.....