Real Time 002: The Week Everything Changed

This week was fucking HUGE. Apparently, when I decided to call this podcast Reality Awareness: Real Time, Reality took that as an invitation to demonstrate exactly what I meant. 😂

It started with me having a meltdown over uneven eyeshadow after batch recording 21 psychic reading Reels - and deciding that what channelled through mattered more than my perfectionism.

And then… everything started moving.

My daughter casually drops the bombshell that once she gets her licence, she's planning to move out.

Excuse me, WHAT?! 😂😭

Cue the grief, the abandonment wounds, the identity shift and me driving around asking myself:

Who the fuck am I without my daughter?

Because apparently asking “Who am I without my trauma?” in Episode 001 wasn't enough. 😂

Then my daughter gets her car. I pick up my new car. The Black Dragon Wagon gets cleaned up and advertised for sale. I finally clear the storage shed I've been trying to clear for YEARS. 🥵

And somewhere amongst all of that, a much deeper layer starts coming up around my family, rejection, success, business, money and the survival patterns I've unknowingly been carrying since 2018.

I have this massive realisation about my Black Dragon Wagon too - how something can represent safety, protection and freedom, while simultaneously keeping your subconscious connected to the pain that made you need that protection in the first place.

Fuck.

We go everywhere in this episode.

Motherhood. Empty nesting. Family wounds. Grief. Money. Business. Intuition. Perfectionism. Following what feels aligned when it doesn't necessarily make logical sense. Breaking through old patterns. Knowing your wounds so they aren't the ones making your decisions.

And the feeling that after years of trying to break through the same fucking glass ceiling in my business… something is finally moving.

And then I realise the timing of all of this.

Sunday - my daughter's car.

Monday - my new car.

Tuesday - finally clearing the storage shed.

Saturday - I turn 42.

Bang. Bang. Bang.

After YEARS of some of these things sitting there waiting to shift, they all move in the same fucking week. What are the chances? Oh yeah, in my life - HIGH! 🤣

By the end of the episode I'm sitting there with white snapdragons I spontaneously bought myself for my birthday, reading an oracle card about transition, blessing and celebration - and then remembering that Don't Worry, Be Happy started playing in the supermarket at exactly the moment I needed to hear it. 😂❤️

I couldn't have planned any of this.

And that's kind of the entire point of Real Time.

You're not hearing the story once I know what it all meant.

You're hearing me while I'm living it. Real Time baby. #ofcourse. This is... Reality Awareness after all. ❤️‍🔥

Welcome to Reality Awareness: Real Time 002 - The Week Everything Changed. ❤️