It's a fine line between 'drama' and having those mighty uncomfortable conversations.
I had an experience yesterday, where someone said to me "Usually I would walk away from this drama, but I am doing this to benefit you."
I replied with,
"Hmmm, yes, it is a fine line with the 'drama' and the really uncomfortable, hard confronting conversations hey?"
It was a big eye opener for me. All those times people threw their hands up in the air with me, brushed them off, turned their backs and walked away... because I was simply having a conversation about some hard, uncomfortable underlying things.
This was so massive.
Another huge shift in - no... there is NOTHING wrong with me.
It was like all the memories flashed back through my vision as they were upping and leaving, dissipating right before me... as I was left sitting there in awe.
The things that flood out of my mouth when I am in full flow of the deep underlying truths that I had buried deep...
Something has massively shifted... when I love on myself, even when I don't look my what I feel is my best, I know I have changed. Raw. Real. Vulnerable. Radical. Unconditional Love.
When I can support myself in ways that nurture me, instead of beat up on me when I have had a massive week with very little sleep, releasing paradigms and relationship entanglements that have been deeply embedded more than I realised and has been slowly eating away at me, way more than I realised was even present and was the issue all along.... when I can love myself in this space, no matter what I look like, I know I have changed.
Sometimes I look worse for wear, but I can still love on myself - but this wasn't always the case!
Sometimes I eat super healthy, sometimes I eat what I can when I am busy. Being out of town now, makes easier for eating healthy that is for sure.
The biggest change I have noticed in myself is that since going back to the gym 3 x a week - I...