The hardest part about healing from your gaslit gifts...

The hardest part about healing from your gaslit gifts...is that the ones you are closest to are the ones you have to walk away from... 

And this? Is probably more excruciating than the realisation of being gaslit in the first place.

And yet, it takes you time to realise what is even going on. What gaslighting even is and then the realisation that it has etched away at your confidence; your light; the person you once were and who you truly are as a person gets put in a box and hidden away - before you even realised what was going on.

The hardest part about healing from your gaslit gifts - is gaining your confidence back in who you are as a person. You didn’t even realise you put on weight (and yet last time you threw yourself into the gym and became really strong because you had to protect yourself cause fuck, no one else would). You didn’t even realise you shut down THAT much. You didn’t even realise you shunned yourself away.

And through that time - you realised just how much of those people you thought were something in your life? Not even comes close to. #ouch

You’ve realised how alone you actually are - even with those you’re closest to.

You’ve realised how envious and jealous the ones closest to you are - even though they play nice and pretend to be your best friend to your face. And yet, people you haven’t spoken to in a long time - seem to know every little detail about you; seem to know things no one knows, that you haven’t shared on social media, that you have… only confided in one person and it wasn’t the one now telling you details to your face?

And the hardest part about it? Is that you didn’t even realise this until the greatest traumatic event of your life made you wake tf up and realise just how ridiculous a lie of a life you’ve been living to date.

Not your life. Not your confidence. Not who you are as a Soul and a person - but the people that have surrounded you and called you ‘family’ and ‘friends’ - have been secretly judging you or not so secretly; have been draining the fuck out of you and throwing shade your way as soon as your back is turned. #alsowtfouch.

They were there - cheering and supporting you - until you reached a certain level of success then the energetics - which you are so clear as day on because this is your gift.. start to show truths you keep turning away from until you cannot one day longer… then the entire reality SNAPS.

You recognised it in moments with them - and it was just that - a moment. And you brushed it off. Not even because even if it were true, that leaving them - would mean you have absolutely no one. It wasn’t even about this - you’re good at being alone.

You brushed it off - because you thought so highly of them, that you wouldn’t even think they would back stab you - it didn’t even enter your mind. You’ve spent so much time with this person, they have been in your life a long time and then to realise truths (Third Eye Chakra Consciousness) that you didn’t even think would come close to what has now been shown to you? (Also Third Eye Chakra Consciousness).

**Cue excruciating pain that you walk through the grief cycle and some because of it… the shock hits hard.. the waves of grief… then anger and frustration and the cycle flicks like a washing machine on speed cycle tearing up your insides at the same time and some. Oh. My. God. You’ve got to be kidding me?! How did I not see this before? How did I let this slide for so long? How did I tolerate this??

Because at this stage? You definitely don’t tolerate it anymore.

This is what heart centred conscious humans do. They get pushed. They tolerate it. They know that this person ultimately has good heart that they can shift and grow and that they are just at a different stage of consciousness and life. All the whilst believing that they wouldn’t do that to you.

And yet - in the realisation and excruciating pain - realising that you were even gaslit in the first place, is a huge wake up and shakes the very foundations of reality of what your reality has been even built on.

The hardest part about healing from your gaslit gifts…?

Is that you will go through all the phases…

“Wait, am I the narcissist? Wait, is what they are saying true?”

You will - for a moment if not longer… question the very reality that you know and live by to be true.

Your values get questioned and you start to lose your sanity. They tell you to get ‘real’ help, see a psychologist - and yet you have been for years, tell them this and then they don’t know what to do with that information. Because at the end of the day? You’ve only been sharing and holding up a mirror of a reality they don’t want to face - but you didn’t even realise the depth of your power…..until now.

In the shock and disbelief that you had not just tolerated this for so long - you believed.. you thought… you didn’t realise… how much you let this level of mis-match of values into your life.

And ultimately? That is what it is. A mis-match of values.

The thing about building a multi-million dollar empire from Soul is that you will outgrow ‘normal’ people in your life - rapidly.

You may hold onto relationships that you think are growing with you.. until all the above happens.

And it just ultimately means?

Congratulations - you have moved to your next level.

An in that… all the cobwebs of old consciousness realities that you have truly outgrown - drop away.

You become even clearer in your values; you become stronger in your resolve; you realise you let everything go - because you were in such shock and grief that you didn’t realise who they truly were as people… more so -

WHO YOU ACTUALLY ARE.

You have always known, deep in your Soul that you’re here to live a very different, very extraordinary life.. and yet, you clung to what was normal for your own fear of your own power and the mis-match in values of the people you held onto because that is what you grew up in and tolerated was simply a mirror of your own fears.

Imagine the day you truly face that mirror.

Face your demons.

Face… yourself?

SNAP.

The Third Eye Chakra Consciousness coming online… that you see truths you did not see before and it isn’t even about them…

This is about you and what you value and the strength and resolve in yourself - let alone the COURAGE to go after what you truly want in life.

Success cannot be defined.

But your Empire will grow to and at the rate of not so much of what you do - but how strongly you can stay connected to your values, your vision, your mission - with blinkers on - and how rapidly you walk away from anything that is not that.

After a while, I began judging myself for dropping relationships at the flick of a hat because they were not aligned with my very high standards and values.

I was told that I shouldn’t be doing this; that my standards are too high; that I am a gold digger; that I need to not live this way; that I hold everyone at distance with a ten foot barge pole and that I would be alone for the rest of my life (from the narcissists no less).

And so I took those words to heart. I did years of weekly therapy and hid myself away in a box that I didn’t even realise I went into.

And the outcome of that? Of what I realised?

• They were not aligned with my very high standards and values = I was strong and clear in who I am. I have done daily personal development work for over 20 years - I know wtf I am and that power scares people. It’s called knowing wtf you are in life and what you want - you should try it some time.

• I was told that I shouldn’t be doing this = says those that gave up their dreams and let other people’s judgements of being a psychic or living what they really want stop them. Yeah, well I moved through that so maybe take a note out of my book.

• That my standards are too high = says those that don’t have any and let themselves get walked all over and stay with narcissists their whole life; #nothanks

• That I am a gold digger = get some gold and then come back and say that to me - to my face; not as a key board warrior

• That I need to not live this way = again they are threatened because it is making them regret not following what they truly wanted to do with their life - they settled; #yeahnotforme

• That I hold everyone at distance with a ten foot barge pole = fucking oath. I will protect my energy; my boundaries and my sacred heart at all costs

• That I would be alone for the rest of my life (from the narcissists no less) = don’t leave me, I will be alone if you do - yep, exactly.

You’re Strong. Powerful. Clear & Grounded.

Don’t let alone’s judgements knock you down so much that you forget that.

And even if you do lose your way because your big heart gave them the benefit of the doubt and in that took you down a deep black rabbit hole you didn’t even realise you were in - you will definitely - shine bright again because the work you’ve done - once you’re conscious? You can’t stay unconscious. Especially with the level of connection to your Soul.

And your Soul - is always leading you to your Dreams - no matter how many unconscious detours you take.

Where do you need to grieve, so you can reconnect back to what your Soul is leading you - that has been the pathway all along regardless of what happened?

Love, Hannah
The Life Purpose Queen 👑

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