After yet ANOTHER devastating relationship break up I found myself hiding away, breaking down in tears and pretending nothing happened on the outside, when inside, I was dying.. another huge gaping hole in my heart.... wtf is actually wrong with me??
After several weeks of moping around, trying to get some sort of work done and figuring out what is next because it seemed like everything was lost... I finally began to pick myself up and get back on my feet again.
I began to get in my groove again and vowed to never let any man pull me off path again... or.. let myself loose myself again... and focus on myself, my daughter and my business.
I wrote down pieces of inspiration and stuck it all around my home. Which I do frequently, however, I also go through phases of clearing it all away and having clear open space.
A fresh wave came in and inspiration flowed as I pulled myself back into deeply alignment, curiosity and wonder at... what the Universe had planned for...
No filter required, because the clarity I feel with my new life is exactly this - clear and beautiful.
However, I found myself bawling my eyes out in deep, deep grief last night for over an hour.
It was deep, deep grief, and it surprised me what it dropped into.
My old house and what I went through being in that home for 8 years.
What I learnt and grew through.
The biggest piece being my ex of 5 years and what... I went through with that. What I grew through and the person it has made me today, because of it.
But not a grief of missing it.
Rather, the stored and buried resentment that I had tucked away deep inside my gall-bladder.
Tears poured, out of no where as I climbed into bed. I found myself 'at my old house' in the lounge room on my knees, bawling my eyes out.
I found myself, hovering/flying above my house/suburb, feeling trapped in the black sludge that I felt energetically in that suburb, that I repeatedly cleared for so...
Week 2 of our Crystalline Chakra Journey is all about the Third Eye Chakra!!
"We are 'awakening into the new dawning era' - with Feminine feeling safe and bringing the Masculine into (balance) and 7 is not a balanced number! 3 is not a balanced number. The consciousness of Humanity will shift when we step out of the triples and the 7's of the chakras and move into Sacred 4 and Divine 8 - infinity flow. If you can feel the depths of what I just wrote in this paragraph - you shift Humanity with your realisation of this alone "
YESTERDAY I SAT ON THE SAND and it was calm. Peaceful. The wind, had ceased.
The chaotic movements seemed to have gone.
The more stable, grounded pieces were all that has been left.
And what an analogy for what I have been feeling lately. Well, this past 6-8 months - has felt like a whirlwind of change. If I could put it into words, it would feel like: