No filter required, because the clarity I feel with my new life is exactly this - clear and beautiful.
However, I found myself bawling my eyes out in deep, deep grief last night for over an hour.
It was deep, deep grief, and it surprised me what it dropped into.
My old house and what I went through being in that home for 8 years.
What I learnt and grew through.
The biggest piece being my ex of 5 years and what... I went through with that. What I grew through and the person it has made me today, because of it.
But not a grief of missing it.
Rather, the stored and buried resentment that I had tucked away deep inside my gall-bladder.
Tears poured, out of no where as I climbed into bed. I found myself 'at my old house' in the lounge room on my knees, bawling my eyes out.
I found myself, hovering/flying above my house/suburb, feeling trapped in the black sludge that I felt energetically in that suburb, that I repeatedly cleared for so...
I can feel it about to drop in - not consciously aware of what just yet - but it is definitely there. This moving to the next level of expansion - has been... huge to say the least - but hey - isn't expansion huge? It's getting bigger? So... this is normal right?
I can feel this entire trip has been about a shake up in not just routine - but breaking out of all addictions, and the final threads of the co-dependence that I chose to consciously work on back in 2018. Of course, that will always be a work in progress - but it was the end of 2017 when I consciously decided and made a choice to consciously work on it.
Having been a single mum by choice for the last 11 years, and then 'having' to go back to the hospital I was born at the other day (which my toe is fine and began healing as soon as that piece of mulga was out!) has been the biggest recalibration I have ever received.
I have been back to my home town many, many times before in my life, yet this...
I See People Telling People 'you just need to not be in the pain of it' 'you just need to think a positive thought' 'you just need to get over it' 'you just need to forget about it' 'you just need to choose the light and decide to let it go' 'you need to choose to move into a higher vibration' and I cringe, I deeply cringe at the fact that people even tell people these things!
Maybe it is that they don't want to feel what that person is feeling...
Maybe it is that they don't know what else to say...
Maybe it is that they are protecting their own energy...
Maybe it is that they think that person is 'in too low a vibration and I need to stay clear of them'...
Maybe it is that they simply do not know how to handle such a person which strong, deep, powerful, 'negative' emotions - that they do not know where to start with such a person that has been to hell and somehow got back again through the deepest, darkest trauma that they can't even begin to imagine...
The Upgrades Can Feel Mighty Uncomfortable & Confusing
I remember feeling totally freaked out when I consciously experienced my first upgrade.
It was deeply uncomfortable, I felt
However once I realised/learnt what was going on - I trained myself to relax into it and receive it.
Ascension is happening regardless of whether we do work or not.
Humanity and consciousness and society is changing and the resistance to these upgrades will be full of pain, trauma and will feel like torture, it can feel like no body understands you and that you are struggling big time and 'Yeah, all good for you Hannah!' - this is the trapping of the old paradigm that the upgrades are trying to release you from. I can say this, because this is what I experienced it as before I allowed myself to even go there with this. I was all good in the dark -...
'She had a demon in her Hannah!' - I have heard this so much recently with several clients and other messages that I have received from people, that I need to speak to this publicly. As my response is always the same.
'She had a demon in her Hannah! I felt so shit around them, they drained my energy, they sucked the life out of me 'this person' did and I can still feel it today, even though I have no contact with them!'
No - they didn't.
Now, you might argue that and perhaps just read all the way through first.
They might have a demon/entity/bad spirit attached to them now - HOWEVER.
This is the most important point that I need to you to take away from this - that ANYONE who is behaving like they 'have an entity (I will just use the word entity for ease of writing - but you can replace this with your terminology demon/dark spirit etc).
Anyone who is behaving like they have an entity attached to them - do you know what this is?
Is that they...