"Because they hate me."
I would always come back to this.
"Because they hate me."
For sooo long, many years, up until about 2 years ago... in session with my mentor at the time, I would always come back to, "Because they hate me.".
I can feel it from people.
I would become friends with them, or meet new people or... have known them for a long time.
Then they would become weird towards me. Distance themselves from me. Talk behind my back and I would just FEEL it all the damn time.
And it broke my heart.
Super lonely. No friends. No family.
For so long, I felt this, over and over and over today.
And yet, I have realised what it is. That one particular session with my mentor that day, unlocked something huge, that took me some time to process, or even feel the benefits of the work we did that day - because I would still FEEL the hate that people had for me - especially from the ones closest to me and still today, at times, it breaks my...
I See People Telling People 'you just need to not be in the pain of it' 'you just need to think a positive thought' 'you just need to get over it' 'you just need to forget about it' 'you just need to choose the light and decide to let it go' 'you need to choose to move into a higher vibration' and I cringe, I deeply cringe at the fact that people even tell people these things!
Maybe it is that they don't want to feel what that person is feeling...
Maybe it is that they don't know what else to say...
Maybe it is that they are protecting their own energy...
Maybe it is that they think that person is 'in too low a vibration and I need to stay clear of them'...
Maybe it is that they simply do not know how to handle such a person which strong, deep, powerful, 'negative' emotions - that they do not know where to start with such a person that has been to hell and somehow got back again through the deepest, darkest trauma that they can't even begin to imagine...
I FORGET IT AFFECTS ME TOO
Sounds silly right? Yet, I do.
Right now, we are in this portal that I keep talking about. If you look back over the years, this time of year is always quite.... shedding one could say.
It is when we are either going into a caterpillar cocoon into the darkness - or are the seed in the darkness of the soil that we don't realise is a seed about to hit the surface and feel the light again...
We are coming out of the cocoon already, or we've already broken the surface of the soil and are feeling the light again.
I will keep reminding you that we are in this portal of Halloween/Samhain - this is the marking point of heading into the dark winter... in the Northern Hemisphere of course.
Then, on top of that, we are heading into Scorpio... one of the darkest Astrological signs for the simple fact that it is DEEP, dark, mysterious and mighty sensual.
Many are experiencing right now:
Oh, there was so much more I meant to say about this... as I had even wondered why I had 'whispered' such a thing to myself/the Universe one night whilst I was falling asleep.
In my blog yesterday I wrote: "When the first one turned up - later that day I had realised that I said to the Universe several weeks ago - 'Whoever I am meant to be with, will have to turn up on my doorstep!'
Now - the old Hannah would've gone running back because I had said that. Yet, what this showed me was - UM NO WAY. NOT that one."
What else I had to say about that?
Is that I wondered why I had even said that to myself and several weeks later ex's turning up on my doorstep happen.
I don't want a relationship, I am building my business - leave me alone!
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