Allowing to drop into the grief about Panda, has enabled me to move through it fast, or moreso, the depth of grief that his gift and presence in my life enabled me to heal, deep threads from when I was 14 years old (see my latest livestream is you haven’t yet for more on this).
Is it any surprise that this weekend, I am doing something that.... is enabling me to come into who I really am? Which is... what happens when we turn 14? It it any surprise that the timing of what is happening tomorrow, is the core healing of this wound that surfaced this week, from dropping to the depths of what Pandas gift was to me?
Do you know I only realised yesterday when I was on livestream with my Life Purpose Mentorship Tribe/Group - I shared with them, that Adaya and I had gone back to the shop where we saw the pet headstones but a week before and whilst we were choosing one yesterday, a song, was ‘blaring’ in my ears in the shop, ‘In the air tonight’ by Phil Collins,...
ENERGY FIELD ADJUSTMENT
Put down those backpacks, you don't need to carry them anymore
That moment you realise you've been carrying more than your share of the load, that moment when you can choose to release that which was never yours to carry in the first place, that moment when you remember your own energy field and the place your energy field and energetic alignment to your Soul's purpose was leading you in the first place.....
Freedom from the weight of the back packs of things that you don't need to carry, the thoughts and beliefs of your past that weigh you down, energetically are a huge load.
I started writing something else. And it didn't feel right. Because I realised I was censoring what I really wanted to say. Why?! I never do that! I never censor what my heart really wants to say.
Why did I start doing that?
Because my heart is still hurting, well, I don't know - does our heart ever really deeply hurt?
Protecting Your Heart, Protecting Your Energy
The word ‘protecting’ is a bit contradictory - when it comes to talking energy and your feelings for -
The more you 'protect' how you are feeling
The more you try and 'protect' others how you are feeling, or wanting to protect them from something that is going on that is making you hurt, you are actually:
~ denying the truth of how you are feeling
~ closing off your heart
~ closing off to the people who mean the most to you
~ isolating yourself
And what actually happens in this space, is that the people you are protecting from feelings, actually don't feel protected - they feel abandoned, isolated and actually feel the energy you are trying to protect them from - more deeply.
Because energy is energy - it is a bit like the shadow, whatever you are trying to hide, push away and 'not think about' (pink elephant anybody!?!) get's stronger - it's right there.
Whether you are...
The most common question I get asked is how do I let it go? How do I let that issue go and let it not interfere in my present? And the other question I get asked is how do I let go of my past relationship? And I'm going to answer them both here, because they both have the same answer. In fact, what I am about to share, relates to letting go of anything from your past. Hurt, pain, the loss of a loved one - anything.
How I speak to this right now, will be relating to being able to let your past go so it doesn't interfere with your present.
I've spoken a lot recently about choices. Make a choice to let it go. Making a decision to not feel that way. Yet a huge reality for most people and what I struggled with for many years, is being able to fucking let shit go.
I would get hurt. Someone would say something or do something and I would hold onto it for MONTHS. Years even. And I did. And it almost killed me. Literally.
So many have been asking me lately and I even taught this in Calling...
The Rose Bush Analogy
So many of society are walking around with closed Hearts, hunched shoulders and sad minds. And these closed Hearts?
They have either a shield of armour protecting them, or shields or concrete walls or something similar.
Because honey, most people don't know how to protect themselves from getting hurt again. (btw, spiritual protection and protecting your energy is a bit old school these days! But that's another post!)
You see, the only thing that is real is LOVE. So when you close your Heart due to past pain from relationship hurt, trauma or otherwise, you do so to protect yourself from getting hurt again right?
Well, it doesn't quite work like that....
You may think you are protecting yourself from getting hurt again, but what you are actually doing is shutting the LOVE out that is present right now in the right now babe!
Because all that is now is Love. Someone gifting you something, someone saying you look good today, someone offering to carry your bag for...
Suicide and the Empty Heart
There has been alot about suicide coming to my awareness again recently, with celebrities and more and even though I have spoken to this in the past, I feel called to deeply share this here now.
The thing with suicide is that one simply has lost Life Purpose. The Heart is completely shut down, there is a huge barrier and wall around ones Heart. The Heart is deeply connected to your Life Purpose.
It's your desires, your joy, your fun, your LOVE - for self and others and life itself.
When you shut down your Heart, that's done to protect oneself from future pain, but when you do this, it also blocks out any future love and care to come IN and THAT feels very isolating. It creates a big cold cave.
Why does one shut down their Heart? Yes for protection - so you don't get hurt again right? This can stem from childhood or a relationship that wasn't very nice (or other things!)
What happens here, when you shut down your...