Oh babe, come on... seek in YOUR heart, not mine...
I say that, I feel there is a connection there between us, yet what you are feeling, is a connection with your own soul, your own heart - and the love and attraction you feel is a love and attraction to a version of yourself that you need to own, step up to and BE in this world - THEN you will attract someone who reflects that to you, you don’t need to look for love you need to BE love… I hear there is a deep longing in your soul to be loved, to be needed to be honoured to be cherished… yet - are you doing this for yourself? When we are searching for that counterpart - you will only seek emptiness… for you are empty yourself, seeking to fill a hole. Yes, it is a very real human need to be loved, held and cherished…yet.. what areas of your life are you neglecting that you are needing to turn this love, acceptance and cherished energy towards?
Open-mindedness that the possibility that there is that...
I FORGET IT AFFECTS ME TOO
Sounds silly right? Yet, I do.
Right now, we are in this portal that I keep talking about. If you look back over the years, this time of year is always quite.... shedding one could say.
It is when we are either going into a caterpillar cocoon into the darkness - or are the seed in the darkness of the soil that we don't realise is a seed about to hit the surface and feel the light again...
We are coming out of the cocoon already, or we've already broken the surface of the soil and are feeling the light again.
I will keep reminding you that we are in this portal of Halloween/Samhain - this is the marking point of heading into the dark winter... in the Northern Hemisphere of course.
Then, on top of that, we are heading into Scorpio... one of the darkest Astrological signs for the simple fact that it is DEEP, dark, mysterious and mighty sensual.
Many are experiencing right now:
I just wouldn't even go there now...
Yet, if I didn't learn what I did back then, if it didn't destroy me back then... well, I know it would've come forth at some point in my lifetime and I am grateful that it did, when it did and... I even feel nervous sharing this.
I also know, that all my experiences have led me to this place now, to have this acute understanding of relationship dynamics, of energetic understanding and for that? Well, I guess the pain was kinda worth it!
When I was fumbling my way around, fumbling my way in the early days of building my business online, this July, marking 4 years from the very moment I opened the online course program I had bought to teach myself how to do it... there was, a lot of... fumbling around... not even, in the online gig scene.
This was... fumbling around in relationships!
I JUST WOULDN'T.....
I see now? That this entire journey online? Has been my journey through Healing My Inner Masculine.
Follow Your Heart
Doesn’t always mean it is the easy way or that it makes logical sense following your Heart.
It does mean the fastest evolution for your Soul’s growth.
It does require you to feel your Heart to receive the full lessons of your Soul's growth.
It does mean that by feeling your whole Heart, you are able to receive those lessons and grow deeply through and from them.
It does mean that your Heart muscle becomes stronger each and every time.
It does mean, that your Intuition becomes clearer and stronger as a result.
It does mean, it get's easier and easier to CHOOSE Joy.
Because that IS a choice.
And that choice get's easier and easier, that muscle becomes stronger and stronger - the joy muscle.
Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it feels like...
REMEMBER YOUR WHY
Why did you even begin?
When you get shut down, lose yourself and FORGET WHO YOU ARE - you also forget why you even started!!
There are things that pull at you, push you aside and tear your heart out... trample it into the ground and leave you in a crumpled mess....
TO remember who you are - I guess!!!
I was so focused, so clear about my WHY and recently... I forgot my WHY.
I remember years ago, when I was 20, I was involved with a network marketing company and they always talked about a WHY.
Back then, I guess my WHY wasn't strong enough.
Yet - I also realise why it wasn't back then...
Because I 'was selling their thing' - not my own.
My gift, my passion, my life purpose IS my WHY.
And recently I had forgotten that.
I had forgotten my dreams - recently.
I was deeply focused - sooo focused.
I had just started to crack the code, just started to make headway, understand why on Earth...
Protecting Your Heart, Protecting Your Energy
The word ‘protecting’ is a bit contradictory - when it comes to talking energy and your feelings for -
The more you 'protect' how you are feeling
The more you try and 'protect' others how you are feeling, or wanting to protect them from something that is going on that is making you hurt, you are actually:
~ denying the truth of how you are feeling
~ closing off your heart
~ closing off to the people who mean the most to you
~ isolating yourself
And what actually happens in this space, is that the people you are protecting from feelings, actually don't feel protected - they feel abandoned, isolated and actually feel the energy you are trying to protect them from - more deeply.
Because energy is energy - it is a bit like the shadow, whatever you are trying to hide, push away and 'not think about' (pink elephant anybody!?!) get's stronger - it's right there.
Whether you are...
The Rose Bush Analogy
So many of society are walking around with closed Hearts, hunched shoulders and sad minds. And these closed Hearts?
They have either a shield of armour protecting them, or shields or concrete walls or something similar.
Because honey, most people don't know how to protect themselves from getting hurt again. (btw, spiritual protection and protecting your energy is a bit old school these days! But that's another post!)
You see, the only thing that is real is LOVE. So when you close your Heart due to past pain from relationship hurt, trauma or otherwise, you do so to protect yourself from getting hurt again right?
Well, it doesn't quite work like that....
You may think you are protecting yourself from getting hurt again, but what you are actually doing is shutting the LOVE out that is present right now in the right now babe!
Because all that is now is Love. Someone gifting you something, someone saying you look good today, someone offering to carry your bag for...