TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY
Today I turn 35. When I was first 'spiritually awakened' back in 2005, I always would say in general conversation with whomever I would speak to, that I 'would be able to retire when I turn 35'.
Now, whilst in my mind, I always thought, that meant I would be a millionaire by the time I am 35 - now that day has come, I realise the depth of what 'retire' means.
Now, let me just clarify something - because mainstream 'retire' and MY 'retire' - two VERY different things.
I will NEVER retire because I never TIRE of doing what I LOVE - because I always have and always will do everything I love all the time.
Much to the disapproval of many people including some family members that would look down their nose at me for "#godforbid follow your heart and dreams - what a crock! No body can do that!" They would say! Ah, you can tell I really listened to them right?!
For me, creating a life I don't need a holiday/vacation from... creating a life that...
I have been nervous to even write again and I am not even sure what has ‘knocked’ it out of me. Yet, of course, I could name several things #ofcourse and I am sure I will begin to share them soon, as I can feel them BUSTING to speak out of me, to be HEARD and VOICED. Amazing, I just typed HEART and realised how close it is to be HEARD HEART - amazing. Hearing the Heart. Okay, okay!
The biggest space that has been going on for me recently is what do I even do anymore?
What is, the point if sooo many spiritual teachers are now out there and emerging, so what is my purpose even more? If everyone is doing it - then… ?
It has been MIGHTY uncomfortable to sit in this space of not knowing! But it actually isn't the 'not knowing'! It is that the internal driver has gone! The motivation if you will, the why or the - needing to do it to be good enough, to achieve or SOMETHING. Yet, it is also REALLY hard to put into words this feeling - yet, I realise, that this is...