I just wouldn't even go there now...
Yet, if I didn't learn what I did back then, if it didn't destroy me back then... well, I know it would've come forth at some point in my lifetime and I am grateful that it did, when it did and... I even feel nervous sharing this.
I also know, that all my experiences have led me to this place now, to have this acute understanding of relationship dynamics, of energetic understanding and for that? Well, I guess the pain was kinda worth it!
When I was fumbling my way around, fumbling my way in the early days of building my business online, this July, marking 4 years from the very moment I opened the online course program I had bought to teach myself how to do it... there was, a lot of... fumbling around... not even, in the online gig scene.
This was... fumbling around in relationships!
I JUST WOULDN'T.....
I see now? That this entire journey online? Has been my journey through Healing My Inner Masculine.
Empaths & Healers Attracting Partners Who Are Not 100% Committed Or Still Attached to Someone Else.
I found working clients over the years and with my own patterns - this thing with Healers & Empaths in particular who attract men (yes, I am speaking from a woman to a man, so if you are a man, obviously change the words to suit.. or not)... attract men who are still in relationship to their ex, perhaps they say they are not and so you move forward in a relationship with them.
But over time, the things don't seem to add up, and then you realise Why did this happen again?!
Why am I continually attracting men who in a single breath jump back with their ex and their kids?!
Why am I only attracting men who are still married even?!!?
Why am I continually attracting men who I only hear from every several months or every year, when they have broken up with their girlfriend, or are fighting with their Mrs and I believe their bullshit stories that they are...
The Number 1 Reason Women Stop Trusting Their Men.....
You are not high maintenance.
You are not controlling.
You are not too emotional.
You are not too much.
You are not jealous.
You are not anything they say you are.
They are just not your men. #period
One could say you outgrew them rapidly.
One could say you were there and then shifted and they didn't shift with you.
One could say, you have been afraid of stepping into who you say you are really meant to be and the reality is that - that version of you? They are not your type anymore are they?! Nope!
And you will never be satisfied because this internal longing for YOU to become who YOU are - will always be there... until you do.
And then ultimate fulfilment and deep alignment to your Soul's Purpose is born - yes?
But until then, do you know what happens?
You stop trusting - them - out there - anyone! And especially the one closest to you - which is only an external...
Here is a free training video I did in my Reality Awareness Facebook Support Group, (which is free to join and you can join our tribe here if you're not already in there with us: https://www.facebook.com/groups/realityawareness1111/ )
On Calling In Soulmate Friendships!
Here are the links I mentioned in the video training:
Rose Bush Analogy: https://www.realityawareness.com/blog/the-rose-bush-analogy
Power My Life Mindset Training: https://www.realityawareness.com/p/power-my-life
Picking Up Other's Subconscious Stuff: https://youtu.be/OLl1GVpPyH4
Soulmate Friendships Audio Affirmations: https://www.dropbox.com/s/bu5heqtc7uocbrg/LPM%20Soulmate%20Friendships%20Affirmations%20by%20Hannah%20Andrews%2C%20Reality%20Awareness.mp3?dl=0
Soulmate Friendships PDF Affirmations: https://www.dropbox.com/s/sff2hy366byqq9t/LPM%20Journal%20Prompts%20Soulmate%20Friendships.pdf?dl=0
***If you want more information on the Life Purpose Mentorship and step into your journey of Mastery, one Chakra at a time, click here for all the details: https://realityawareness.mykajabi.com/p/life-purpose-mentorship ***
Day #30: Allow the Soil to Settle - The Key To Mastery
You can be clearing energy, clearing energy and clearing energy.
And then you can be doing inner work, inner work, inner work.
And then the Soil needs to settle.
What do I mean by this?
When you are clearing energy, doing internal work - consistently - Integration time is sooooo important.
So often people think themselves to be bad, wrong or ‘not good enough’ when they sit down and watch netflix and in the back of their mind think they should be meditating and beat themselves up and feel worse.
And what I say??
It’s integration time honey!!!
There is a delicate balance to life - EVERYTHING is in Balance.
The inflow and the outflow..
Your in breath and your out breath.
I stopped looking for my Soulmate, when I realised it had been in front of me the entire time….
Driving home from Brisbane on Wednesday night, after an already 16 hour fly day, picking up my daughter from New Zealand, and road works traffic taking 3 hours for us to get home, when usually it a 1 hour drive, Adaya (9.5yrs) out of the blue asked,
“Mum, can we just fruit fast for the next few days, I just want to eat fruit for a bit.”
“Sure, honey, sure thing.” I replied, quietly smiling deep in my heart.
I stopped forcing Adaya to eat the foods I made for her when she was a toddler. Why? Because she would go to her Dads - and I would be the ‘bad/not fun mum’ because I only had healthy food in the house. And - I wasn’t going to be the ‘bad/not fun mum’!
I remember being infuriated at the time, when I would pick up my nearly 4 year old at the time and learnt they had been at Maccas and icecream and so much more. I had...